Dare you to move..
i took a study break today, i had two exams in a row i figured i deserved it... right? ok now i feel guilty. anyway there was a theme that strangely ran through my day... my future.
i went for ice cream and we ended up going for a walk around the cutest little residential area in the city. it was nice to look at the houses and dream of what ours would look like and what kind of mom's we'd be. haha, i like plants but i really can't see myself with a huge garden canning things. strangely i became to embellish the idea of living in the city. i couldn't help myself there was nice running paths beside the river with no stray dogs to worry about and there were parks and friendly ppl. i still love the idea of a big yard in the country, but i'm starting to become more open to other things ...
then i went to 725 with Marcia and Crystal which was very fun. there they talked about going for your dreams and truly believing in them. then the speaker-man asked us to close our eyes and dream about my future. to be honest, i thought it was kinda gay, but i did it anyway. when i closed my eyes i saw something different then what i thought i'd see and it freaked me out. maybe that's why i'm still up at 3am.
in my random not sleeping i decided to stop by Joel's journal and it struck me hard. his whole entry was simply "where will i be two years from now?", ok so i think i know where i'm gonna be, but still it made me wonder...
i think that i have this dream/plan for myself, but i feel God changing things, changing my heart. i always think of the story of Naomi in the book of Ruth. she had a plan for her family, for her son's to get married and live a nice life. God had to take that away from her, so He would fulfill His much greater plan for her (putting her in the family line of Jesus). for the last year God has been calling me to let go of my dreams, for His. then i act like a kid that does her chores but throws a hissy-fit every time she's asked to do it. i'm learning that God does have perfect timing and His plan is best.
in Ruth 1:17 Ruth says "Don't ask me to leave you and turn back, I will go wherever you go and live wherever you live..." it is my prayer that those would be my words.
i went for ice cream and we ended up going for a walk around the cutest little residential area in the city. it was nice to look at the houses and dream of what ours would look like and what kind of mom's we'd be. haha, i like plants but i really can't see myself with a huge garden canning things. strangely i became to embellish the idea of living in the city. i couldn't help myself there was nice running paths beside the river with no stray dogs to worry about and there were parks and friendly ppl. i still love the idea of a big yard in the country, but i'm starting to become more open to other things ...
then i went to 725 with Marcia and Crystal which was very fun. there they talked about going for your dreams and truly believing in them. then the speaker-man asked us to close our eyes and dream about my future. to be honest, i thought it was kinda gay, but i did it anyway. when i closed my eyes i saw something different then what i thought i'd see and it freaked me out. maybe that's why i'm still up at 3am.
in my random not sleeping i decided to stop by Joel's journal and it struck me hard. his whole entry was simply "where will i be two years from now?", ok so i think i know where i'm gonna be, but still it made me wonder...
i think that i have this dream/plan for myself, but i feel God changing things, changing my heart. i always think of the story of Naomi in the book of Ruth. she had a plan for her family, for her son's to get married and live a nice life. God had to take that away from her, so He would fulfill His much greater plan for her (putting her in the family line of Jesus). for the last year God has been calling me to let go of my dreams, for His. then i act like a kid that does her chores but throws a hissy-fit every time she's asked to do it. i'm learning that God does have perfect timing and His plan is best.
in Ruth 1:17 Ruth says "Don't ask me to leave you and turn back, I will go wherever you go and live wherever you live..." it is my prayer that those would be my words.
posted by Cherise at 2:55 AM
2 Comments:
wow! that's really intense, yet so inspiring! I have a hard time letting go of my plans. I always think they are the best plans...but you're right, God knows best and I hope I'd be willing to change my plans if God told me to.
closing my eyes. i totally didn't see what he was expecting or talked about. i didn't see future plans or anything. i saw me with Jesus, running across an ocean, dancing in the woods, and laying my head in his lap while he played guitar for me. i guess those aren't plans, but hey, they fit into any plans i make! in two years, hey? where will i be physically is easy...spiritually? thanks for sharing cherise and for coming with me!
p.s. i saw someone with the same pink converse shoes this morning!
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