i just want to stand still

i've decided that i hate crossroads in life. i've come to yet another one, i guess life is full of them. i hate this, i just can't decide anything and all i want is more information, more research and then i can make the right decision. i think sometimes in life you have to dive in without knowing everything and just hope things work out... i'm scared

on a less vague note, i went shopping yesterday. i'm trying to find a dress for my cousin's wedding. wasn't successful at all, except something strange happened. as i was trying on dresses i realized how much i love them, weird. i haven't liked wearing dresses since, well grade 8. and i almost bought a pair of the cutest stiletto's i've ever seen!! i know that this new found womenlyess shouldn't shock me, i've surpressed it for a long time. hehe i guess parts of it come out sometimes! : D anyway it causes the age old battle to come up in me, do i look nice or do i actually be able to do things in what i'm wearing, hummmm....

the guy staring in nepoline dynamite as on the tonight show the other day. hehe it was entertaining he looks like a dork in real life too!