my crossroads

i'm not sure what to say or where to even begin. i've been doing a lot of thinking about my life lately. things are gonna change, they are changing. there is soo much false teachings in my head right now. slowly, painfully God's bringing me back.

i'm really thankful for ppl that are honest with me and tell me i shouldn't be where i'm at. i'm thankful for this weekend and seeing ppl (special marks to Holly and Phil) and sadly i'm thankful for being at the funeral. sometimes i think God reveals things to us and we come to a crossroads in our lives, i want to make the right decisions.

being at the funeral did something else to me. i cried in public and i couldn't stop and it was ok, actually i kinda liked it. hehe, lately it seems the only things i do are giggle and cry, but i giggle more then cry so that's nice. i was soo afraid that if someone hugged me that i'd burst out and i did alright. haha ok i avoided it at all cost, but next time i'll be able to do it (but hopefully they're be no more "next time") haha, ok not in my life, but it makes it a lot easier to know that i have friends that will hold me when i cry. thanx!