the crap of the world has been thrown and i have become it's victom
i've really been trying to be positive, but now it's done, i'm about to exploid. so tues i dyed my hair and it doesn't look good at all. it's blonde now and dead. i don't think i've ever had hair that isn't soft when you touch it. wednesday i wanted to go to bible study but then i got sick, so i had to stay home and do dishes. and then try to explain to the guy from camp that i can't work there, because i need money, ya i've never felt like a more selfish horrible Christian. i really did try to stay positive till today it was kinda the last straw. i went to the mall to try and find a winter jacket and then in my stupidity i locked my keys in my car with my lights on. so i wondered throu the mall determined to buy something, i found a jacket, but i'm sure i'll return it. and then i went to moxies after the mall closed and looked just like such a loser all by myself in the lounge. it was nice thou i had my martini (it was sooo good) and for my indolgence of food i had *big drum roll* a spinach salad. strange, i just couldn't bring myself to eat anything bad for me.
i guess the lesson in all this is that life is just crappy sometimes, and that's just the way it is. but what makes me happy is that right now these are the biggest problems in my life. i left my keys in my car, but at least i have a car, and at least i have gotten the experience to work at camp and i'm missing out on it because i'm in university, which thou i never remember it, but it is a blessing. and at least i have a Bible study that i'm missing and the hair.... well .... apparently humility is a good thing..... to some ppl.
never in your life would you get me to burst into some hymn of praise or laugh or even smile, i feel crappy, but somehow underneath it all there's still that underlining joy. oh well there's only 3 days left of the week, it can't possibly be too much worse..... right? : S
i guess the lesson in all this is that life is just crappy sometimes, and that's just the way it is. but what makes me happy is that right now these are the biggest problems in my life. i left my keys in my car, but at least i have a car, and at least i have gotten the experience to work at camp and i'm missing out on it because i'm in university, which thou i never remember it, but it is a blessing. and at least i have a Bible study that i'm missing and the hair.... well .... apparently humility is a good thing..... to some ppl.
never in your life would you get me to burst into some hymn of praise or laugh or even smile, i feel crappy, but somehow underneath it all there's still that underlining joy. oh well there's only 3 days left of the week, it can't possibly be too much worse..... right? : S
posted by Cherise at 10:56 PM
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oh Cherise, i'm sorry you had a horrible day. i felt sad for you while i read, but i'm sure your hair looks fine. when have you not looked fine? seriously. love you babe. and not in a marissa-alex way. (oc reference)
Oh Cherise,
Why does it matter? so you had a crap day, it really doesn't matter. You have your realtionship with God (regardless of its state be thankful you that you even have a realtionship), you have your family, and you have your health. The latter is what I have learnt a lot about lately. You don't appreciate that blessing until its taken from you. Take every moment and enjoy it cause God gave you that day. So its not crappy by any means, its a blessing and an experience.
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