Learning to breathe

i went to watch "The Notebook" today and the craziest thing happened. certain things in the movie sparked memories i had had with different guys. i flipped out at first and then began to enjoy the moment. i've shared some great times with a lot of great guys. i know offically i've only really been with 2 guys, but there's been a lot of "almosts". it just made me feel greatful for the things i have experienced. with everything i've gone through i proudly say that i don't have any regrets, it's always better to give it your all, then to wonder "what if". i'll always hold the memories close to my heart, but know that i don't want to be with any of them.

the other thing that i had to share was the sweetest thing i've ever heard. when my Grandpa was in the hospital, we brought my Grandma in one day and she didn't want to go for coffee with us there, she just wanted to sit and watch him sleep. i think that's it, what this is all about.