Committed

this weekend i actually committed to something; i signed a two year contract!! any guesses as to what that is??? (not so difficult) anyway the point is that i actually did this! commitment phobic Cherise actually committed to something. i've been thinking about this a lot, committing to things, more specifically to a life. i hate doing the same things all the time, i hate staying in the same place cause bordem always creeps in... yuck! lately things have been changing a lot and i have really nothing to acredit that to besides growing up and realizing it's time to stop messing around and build a life. i went home this weekend with such high expectations and i have to say i was disappointed. i love seeing the ppl i miss them dearly, but 'home' wasn't home anymore and the farm just didn't get me so excited, although i did have a hard-core craving to drive 4-wheeler! i think i'm learning to accept bordem as a fact of my life, but it's a price i'm ready to pay... so weird. i'm almost 21 and i guess now i'm finally growing up, oh man what's next???? :S