struck by lightning...

i'm so excited today i learnt how lightning works!! isn't that crazy, i'm so pumped..yep sign me up i'm a geek! and after talking to my geography professor about the future of the disciple i decided that i really love science and i think i'm gonna use it as my minor. (don't worry history will always be dear to my heart)

one of the reasons i love science is how you can use simple logic to figure things out. this is what i've been trying to do with myself. today i ran into kate at university and she proceeded to explain to me about her wedding dress and plans for school after marriage. she left me with this thought someone had said to her; they had seen the world and were old and getting married and now they wished they would have had someone to share that with. this whole relationships thing and timing is completely illogical. the worst part is that you can't control your own heart, i have no clue why i would want to be with someone when obviously it would be better for me to be with someone else. there are some things in life we just can't reason our way into or out of. so as of now i give up completely. i have no control over my feelings anyway so what the heck, whatever happens happens hey. oh dear, i'm afraid :S