IT'S A BOY!!

so it's offical as of sunday my brother and his wife had a healthy baby boy!!! his name is Cole and he has long brown hair and he's the sweetest thing i've ever seen. like seriously i figured i'd be good at this, Noah was born in February so this is no sweat. haha, ya no... i held Cole and it was all over again, like seriously it should not be legal to love someone so fast!!

i know i felt like that with Noah, but Cole is different i love them the same, but this time i didn't want to give Cole back. i held him for a good hour and a half and i could have sat there with him for a LONG time!! i didn't want to give him back and at that moment i realized that i want one... a baby. i've never felt like that before!!! and really it's freaking me out. like really one day i could have one, soon if i really wanted to. :O

this opens up a whole new can of worms, a reality that freaks out every part of me!!! i'm not sure where this all comes from, but here i am... oh dear...