lala....Breakdown!!

ok does anyone else remember some christain punk song (it's probably relient K) that had some lyrics and then all of a sudden really loudly they screamed BREAKDOWN. well that's what i was going for in my title. ok i give up that song probably only exists in my head.

anyway, the point of that was that today i had my breakdown. you know when you just get to your breaking point. i was talking to my professor and was getting so frustrated cause he wasn't telling me exactly how to get an A, cause for some reason the world would just end if i didn't get it!! once i left i went and cried to myself for a while and realized that this is completely insane!!! not to say you shouldn't work hard or marks aren't important, but it caused me to think 'who is my master'? which lead me to wonder who we serve and where do we get our identity from?? i am still the same girl weither i get an A or B or even a C...gasp :O. hehe, my identity is based on far more concrete things. ppl's perceptions may change of me if they knew of some of my actions, but everyone has 'dirty little secreats'. God sees my heart and He knows all the good and bad that's in there. i'm still His princess and really that's what matters.

the moral of this little story: we all have hidden C's in different areas of our lives; some more visable than others, but God gives us an A+!!!

funny story: (sorry i had to include this randomly) i went to safeway today at 10:30pm, but i wasn't sure if it would be opened. so i looked for parked cars, sure enough i park and start to go in. just as i'm walking through the parking lot i start to panick. "there's cars but no ppl in them!!...where are all the ppl, it must be closed". :D