Callittorture, call it university

it's late and i'm cramming for my exam. i can't believe after tomorrow i get a break from school, oh wow. :D

lately i've been learning a lot of things, besides why the sky is blue and how weather works. i finally get the verse "to live is Christ and to die is gain", somehow i've never really understood that. maybe it's just me but the pressure of life is far too much for me, i set such high expectations of myself that i flip out all the time. it's so freeing and i feel so alive when i recognize that me, as in the "I", does not matter. like whatever if i'm not the smartest or most athletic or prettiest or nicest, meh, God thinks i'm stellar and everyone else can just.... i think you see where i'm going with this. ;)

i'm also figuring out how important perspective is. it shapes your attitude and mindset and can totally change an entire situation. the Bible tells us that "we have the mind of Christ", however living in "the world" inevitablly it gets corroded with other ideas. it's like the cold front taking over the warm front. ok yep i've been studying for way too long and now i need to get back... ya for soil types!!!