i heart trees

the guys at work asked me today if i'd ever huged a tree.... i think that was my theme of the day talking all about the environment, i love working for hydro cause they really do try to help the environment, because they hurt it soo much... i know. but they try and it's fun to read about it.

oh gosh, it's been so long since i've written in here. the other day a man came in and said "that's just dandy" haha it was awsome!!!

on to a more serious note... i think. one of my roomates from capenwray is getting married!!!!!!! isn't that nuts!!! it really hit me cause like one of them is married, the other is engaged and another of them has or is getting a promise ring shortly. haha, then there's me. sometimes i wonder how i go about finding all these ppl that are soo serious about life, i'm soo not.

one of my goals this year was to become a more stable consistant person. i always wanted to be the rock that wasn't here, there and everywhere. turns out that as hard as i try that's not gonna happen, i tend to be the butterfly to goes towards the bright shiny thing (and no this time it's not a coke machine).

i thought things were so set in place and i was starting to be stable and now here i am going to mexico possibly idaho and making dreams to leave the province, again.

as much as i try i still feel soo free, like nothing is in my way and my life is just a journey chalked full of one more insane day after the next. i dont' really try for the drama it seems to find me, seriously like every weekend for the last 2 months somthing has to happen, and so i laugh again. so i think i've found my life analogy, it's totally like a surfing, i just ride it out one wave at a time and God's my surfboard that keeps me afloat. it'd be better if i could stay on a surboard haha, some day....