When you can't fake it hard enough to please

above all the things in the world i hate being sad, i really do i want to be anything else in the world. i try to positive as much as possible but sometimes i just can't do it... i hate those days. When you don't have the energy to cover it up anymore and everyone knows. The women at work thought i was sick today, i guess i probably am. i'm stressed and sad and happy all at the same time. sometimes i feel like i take on other people's emotions, i dont' think empathy's worth anything unless you're there feeling it with them.

These are those moments when you miss having that one person there to hold you when you cry and share how you feel with. when he doesn't say anything but just gives you that look like it's ok and he cares about you. i know as a good Christian girl i'm suppose to say that God will fill that, but i can't lie it's not the same.

i feel like i'm floating around this world and i'm not sure what to do, or if i'm in the right spot. i make decisions and i'm not sure if it's right. i'm not sure whatz inside my heart and whatz from God or whatz from me. who's dreams am i chasing?