Somthin's gotta give

Ever stop and realize that things can't stay this way, that the life you live is not something you can do for any amount of time. i got there today, i just realized that i'm not sure how much longer i can do this. i feel like i'm missing out on soo much. i moved back here to have a great summer and spend time with the ppl i love and really well i suck at it, i'm failing and i can feel it. i miss my nieces and nephews most, i saw them last week and i barely recognized them they'd grown so big and i know they miss me too. i hate quitting at things, but i'm far more afraid of losing the relationships and the times with ppl that i hold dear.

it's been a long month and i've pushed myself to the max and done things i didn't really think i could get throu but now i'm done. it's not that i can't do it, it's just to the point where it's not worth it.