Thay it ain't tho!
so last night i was watching fear factor and when this girl and her mom won i almost started crying.... hum i know i'm more of a softy but that was a little too intense. then i stopped and remembered the thing i suck at.. saying good-bye. This is the reason i know i could never work a whole summer at camp again. i'm great with meeting new ppl (if i want to be) but it's just so hard to let go. my title is the inside of a card my friend from work gave me on her last day of work with me (on the front there's a picture of a duck saying "you're leaving", it made me laugh). she gave a whole bunch of things and so without planning on it i realized i had made a friend. i'm really gonna miss her, cause before i knew it i really started to care about her.
i've been thinking a lot about what love is and i realized that love really is just a choice. i don't believe in love at first sight or ppl that say they love each other after only knowing each other a month or two, i think it's a decision you make, a relationship you work at. falling out of love is entirely possible if you simply stop making the consious decision to love someone. i used to think it was some majical thing that happens the moment you meet and at that second you just drive each other crazy!!! the majic and that craziness does happen just i don't think like that.
i saw a mockingbird today it was so close that if i would have reached for it, i could have touched it. it stopped by twice and i just sat there in awe of it.
where's the connection between these thoughts? well i figured out that love enters into you're heart slowly with a choice, it's not something you can grab or force, but it's a choice on both parts to let the other in. if love is opening the door then it is also very easy to close the door. to turn the cold shoulder and keep everyone out. this is the thing i am sadly very skilled at. it's such a simple concept but when applied to all the relationships in life it tends to blow the mind. i know mine has gone down about 100 different paths wiether it be spiritual or romantically or just relational with strangers and those we're close to.....
i've been thinking a lot about what love is and i realized that love really is just a choice. i don't believe in love at first sight or ppl that say they love each other after only knowing each other a month or two, i think it's a decision you make, a relationship you work at. falling out of love is entirely possible if you simply stop making the consious decision to love someone. i used to think it was some majical thing that happens the moment you meet and at that second you just drive each other crazy!!! the majic and that craziness does happen just i don't think like that.
i saw a mockingbird today it was so close that if i would have reached for it, i could have touched it. it stopped by twice and i just sat there in awe of it.
where's the connection between these thoughts? well i figured out that love enters into you're heart slowly with a choice, it's not something you can grab or force, but it's a choice on both parts to let the other in. if love is opening the door then it is also very easy to close the door. to turn the cold shoulder and keep everyone out. this is the thing i am sadly very skilled at. it's such a simple concept but when applied to all the relationships in life it tends to blow the mind. i know mine has gone down about 100 different paths wiether it be spiritual or romantically or just relational with strangers and those we're close to.....
posted by Cherise at 9:01 PM
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hey cherise, i have this thing i've kept on my computer for like ever and i think you are the one who said it to me over msn. here it is: "(love is)being able to look past everything, forget everything bad the person ever did to you and still want to be with them always. being willing to drive thousands of kilometers to hold them during thunderstorms just because you know they're afraid of them. being willing to endure all the pain in the world just so someday you can be together."
just thought you might enjoy that.
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