not a huge Good Charlotte fan
so i finally gave in and got one, ya i've been avoiding it for a while. trends always eventually overcome the norm so why fight it. the last year and a half has been such a rollercoaster for me and i've just come to the point where "i just wanna live" (hence the title of my blog.) i'm tired of moving, i'm tried of having "new friends", i tired of the emotional/spiritual highs and lows of my life. i've never appreciated consistancy in my life before and now i cling to it. i didn't realize how much i love my family and my friends and God. no matter how dumb and crazy i get, they'll be there to pick me up.
i've made a lot of mistakes this year. i set out to loose my naive attitude of the world and i did. it's horrible, as Bono said "there's power in being naive". you have less things to fear and to deal with. i've always had the knowledge of the world, however now i have wisdom. you have to go through a lot of crap to gain wisdom, why i did it the hard way makes little sense to me. i love proverbs it's written by someone who's gone throu it all and that wisdom is proved time and time again to be true.
i know Andrew breaking up with me was for the best, but it still hurts. to put so much care and time into a relationship only for it to be distroyed in a moment. even thou you don't want to be with someone, you can still care for someone a lot.
i've learnt so much from relationships. i can cry infront of ppl now and express my feelings. i'm not even afraid of confrintation, it has to happen, still sucks thou. everything in my life has had a black and white answer, but in relationships there's sooo many things i can't figure out and so many grey areas. even if you think you've figured out one person there's tons more out there. i also now know what i want.... FINALLY!! i've been reading "every woman's battle" it's about a women's battle with sexuality, yes women have trouble with that too, it's not just guys. anyway it says that women need to find a man that stimulates (haha i like that word) you physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. trust me, relationships don't work if you don't have all 4, i've tried with jsut a varying of combinations of them, it doesn't work!
this is becoming rather large, sorry i've got a lot on my mind, so i'll save some for later.
i've made a lot of mistakes this year. i set out to loose my naive attitude of the world and i did. it's horrible, as Bono said "there's power in being naive". you have less things to fear and to deal with. i've always had the knowledge of the world, however now i have wisdom. you have to go through a lot of crap to gain wisdom, why i did it the hard way makes little sense to me. i love proverbs it's written by someone who's gone throu it all and that wisdom is proved time and time again to be true.
i know Andrew breaking up with me was for the best, but it still hurts. to put so much care and time into a relationship only for it to be distroyed in a moment. even thou you don't want to be with someone, you can still care for someone a lot.
i've learnt so much from relationships. i can cry infront of ppl now and express my feelings. i'm not even afraid of confrintation, it has to happen, still sucks thou. everything in my life has had a black and white answer, but in relationships there's sooo many things i can't figure out and so many grey areas. even if you think you've figured out one person there's tons more out there. i also now know what i want.... FINALLY!! i've been reading "every woman's battle" it's about a women's battle with sexuality, yes women have trouble with that too, it's not just guys. anyway it says that women need to find a man that stimulates (haha i like that word) you physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. trust me, relationships don't work if you don't have all 4, i've tried with jsut a varying of combinations of them, it doesn't work!
this is becoming rather large, sorry i've got a lot on my mind, so i'll save some for later.
posted by Cherise at 3:33 PM
2 Comments:
yes, cherise, I do believe you have been converted, don't even try to deny it!!
EEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW good carlotte?EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! I love you
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